..Wake up after a long sleep and lay in bed for hours and suddenly think
“Have I heard my voice today?”
but you can’t urge yourself to break the silence for the fear of what you might hear is not what you hold to be true.
So you lie in bed even longer and the thought marinates in your mind…
and slowly you start to feel your tongue heavy against your teeth and your lips become solid as if they were never meant to part?
and right when you are at the point of insanity and want to burst this bubble of silence you stop and think
“Maybe, I can spend just a few hours more without having to hear a single human voice?”
and
That’s when suddenly all the sounds within hearing distances becomes amplified.
You can hear the slamming of a faraway car door , the shallow breathing of your dog just on the other side of the room or the cricking sound of the branches as they whine in protest to the wind….
and..
Right at that very moment when you open your ears to actually hear what is there and not what you think is there..
you see the shadows casted in from the window and notice..
How the sun dims and brightens your room back and forth..
like some huge hand playing peek-a-boo with your eyes….
The more you start to actually see, the more your mind starts to expand ..
The more it wonders off to other questions that at first seem irrelevant but still have some significances…
but right as you start to feel comfort in the thought..
The world starts to loose all saneness
and you find yourself questioning the voice in your head…
T H I S V O I C E..
that seems to narrate every thought that crosses your mind.
“Is this voice really mine?”
-or-
“Is it just telling me what to think?”
but..
S T O P
This is the part in which the voice tells you to get up….
and you listen…
“Did I give the order?”
-or-
“Am I just following the order?”
S T O P
The voice demands you to halt all thought and breathe
and
you do as you are told…
”Hold you breath and break the barrier between “me” and your lips.”
and there it is again.
Telling you what to do….
but this voice and your mind coincide within the same plane….
So why do you question it?
You do as you are told…
and
say the word that brings reality back into perspective.